Showing posts with label MIND. Show all posts
Showing posts with label MIND. Show all posts

Thursday, June 9, 2011

917 Days Left

Before I go any further…let me say thank you to everyone who commented yesterday.  As an FYI, I did reach out to Allan for help and he has sent me some information already.

That’s all I got for today.  I am taking a blogging sick day.  I got a lot to catch up on at work  and I want to spend some time reflecting on a few things.  I just wanted to make sure I got a chance to thank you all.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Am I Actually Ready? (918 Days Left)

So yesterday was a rough day at work.  We had some compliance errors that I had to come down hard on some people for, I came home to a house that looked like a tornado blew through it and then to end it all, I had to fish a dead squirrel out of the pool. Let's say today has a pretty good chance of being a better day.

In my last post, Allen from AlmostGastricBypass slapped me with a reality check.  He asked me if I was actually ready to lose weight.  Quickly, I answered yes. As the day progressed, I thought about it more.  The more I thought about it, the more I realized that this is not going to be easy.  It is not going to be as simple as cutting back here and there and then killing a whole pizza and a growler of beer during the big game.  I thought about this being a lifetime commitment. Later on in the evening, I was watching that extreme weight loss show on DVR with my daughter and every time they showed the guy on TV, I saw my daughter checking out my belly.  I think last night my daughter might have put it together that daddy is unhealthy.  Before, I was just a big guy…now I am a fat and need to lose weight.  And for her, the rest of my family and myself….I am actually ready to lose the weight.

A couple of years ago, my doctor recommended having weight loss surgery.  I thought about it long and hard and went to a couple of meetings and met with a few people to see if it was what I wanted.  I came to the conclusion that I it was not for me because having the surgery meant not having carbonated drinks or ice cream anymore. I let my love of food make the decision for me.  Not the risks involved.  How stupid and selfish is that??? Today I weigh 15 pounds less that the day of that doctors appointment.  All because I wanted I did not see the world of opportunity that would be opened up to me. 

From this day forward, food is not longer going to rule my life.